A wife was left feeling 'angry and confused' after her husband asked if he can have an affair with another woman. Your most recent gf sounds like a cold hearted person who is NOT a catch in anyway imaginable. One thing I noticed is that these Ns do NOT like to know about your problems and weaknesses. When a narcissists ex moves on and finds true and lasting happiness, the narcissist is furious. Why? Because he knows i hate fighting and wants to solve everything. I found him again on dating websites, 3 profiles on POF different ages, different names. It has been over 2 yrs that my ex broke up w me according to him because I send an old guy friend a meme I LOVE YOU FRIENDETC SEND TO 15 OF YOUR FRIENDS. I love having someone new to tell my stories to, to express my opinions, and to share my profound theories and beliefs about the important things in life. I said goodbye and told him that I hope I had made an Impact in his life in a good way and that he has learned something from this just as I have. They leave you spinning, wondering what happened, without a period to the end of that sentence. They rarely let their mask slip completely. Reply . I finally learned after falling for the hoovering several times. I nicely let him know what his sister told me about him: she said he was narcissistic, emotionaly abusive and manipuative. I directed a question, specifically to HER, and she couldnt even answer completely before he jumped in with HIS opinion. He couldnt take it if I countered his opinions or discarded his advice about MY life. It happens slowly, over timeso that when the relationship comes to an end the victim doesnt know who they are anymore. yesterday said that he didnt want me to agree to living apart and it was a mind game and he said it was exactly what it was and that I just jumped right on board. 1. One and only. I guess Im just struggling with all the emotions related to the situation more than anything. And i really believe that he meant it at the moment he said that. Will she change her mind and get in touch with me? The illness ot causes tumors has been back for 10 months.New and long gone with the other woman, I am not part of his circle of friends and family. In response to Jills comment, Oct 10 at 9:31 PM, Jill, there was something broken in them that we wanted to try and heal or at least help them through. I thought I was the one that was crazy, not a good person, inadequate, didnt make enough money, didnt do the right thing, couldnt keep it together. I have a hard head and have struggled for years. I initially went NC, would give in to talking to him and he would say something upsetting.back to NC. Narcissistic rage is not like normal anger, its an uncontrollable and subconscious desire to lash out. keep tabs on me)? You do an awesome job Kim. And each time he shows you just how dysfunctional he is, cementing your decision to leave him alone. They had bled their partner dry of all the narcissistic supply they had and left when they had nothing left to give. The person Im with is a narcissist when I dont do one little thing its all over he says hes moving out hes told me he was going to leave like 20 times but doesnt go anywhere hes 50 Im 39 . Then I finally said ok after he cried about how could you cut me off completely when we meant so much to each other Heres the problem. RodMan, thanks for your insight. You can probably google it. Sometimes I feel really light when I remember I am free from all the bullshit. He started distancing himself from me and going out late with friends, mostly girls.He withheld sex fro me often, to the point that we would have sex once every other month or 2 at most. YOUR ABUSIVE. If I tell him off about his narc behavior he accepts it. If Im not sure about something, its okay if it doesnt quite work but when I know that I want something I dont want anything to get in the way. You cannot hide or change if you do not know that the disorder exists. So, as far as theyre concerned, the more supply they get, the better the relationship. He doesnt work their anymore but I know that number well since he use to phone me from work. My narc was beautiful. A mail with subject `STOP FOR EVER WITH CONTACT!. If there is any way you can leave with your child and not see either of these men, you and your child would both be better off. I receive questions all the time from people who were in relationships with narcissists, and they are the same questions I used to have. Why did i gave him this good feeling to have his way. Twice shes also been informally diagnosed with Bipolar by 2 different therapists. But, of course, things havent changed now that youre not together anymore. So we see the damaged person still walking around cloaking their pain and we feel for them. Do I text or call him? He wants nothing to do with me now. I even got involved and it is a gift to have these empty souls teach you what LOVE IS NOT! The answer lies in how narcissists apparently view relationships. Im convinced. Telling them they are a Narc does nothing but enrage them. It was as if his mind completely changed and he realized I already knew too much and there was no going back. I never hit her or anything even though she slapped me, punched me in the face, damage my property, talked bad about me to other people talked bad about my friends and family. If they can see mum and dad as friend they will be much better off for it. Anyone have the feeling after all is said and done withthe narcissist that your love life is a joke. He became a drug using front-man/bartender /food server who contacted me 25ish years after graduating high school and the nostalgic memories of our youth attracted me towards him when we talked about how cute we were in 7th grade holding hands and kissing by the school bus. Matt, I wanted to chime in, because I went through something kind of similar. She does not even know me. It could have taken years if this episode wasnt so intense. Even being through what I went through, the things some of my female Amish friends endure is truly horrific. The plain people are t so perfect my heart aches for what I know and Im so grateful for my station in life and enjoy that out here in my English world, I have means to escape if I need to. But it would feel good when he will contact me. Forgot to include how important the No Contact is. I am so glad this site exist. So I let her know I would not be giving it to her but she was welcome to buy it when I was ready to sell it and told her I hoped it wouldnt ruin our relationship. I just couldnt ignore, 1. I feel i need him. One such neurotransmitter is dopamine, a chemical responsible for making us feel pleasurable sensations throughout our bodies. Im in love with being your drug, your dagger, your suicide note. I was screaming inside! I have been physically separated for 2 years and one month. I will definitely visit him now. The first time we have no contact for such a long time. They want it all, at all costs, so they slowly & painfully strip it all from us, they take everything we have, even our energy 20 Sure Signs a Married Man Wants To Sleep With You. []. 2. The problem is they can never view themselves objectively, so your efforts are fruitless. Where he used to be able to (really well) fake his love etc. Thanks Kim for this wonderful blog. I hope youve found yourself a good therapist and now take great care of yourself. But he finds out soon. I received a text from her shortly after her borrowing the money that she had a check in the mail for me! let them back in in anyway and you will find yourself back at Day One, curled up in a fetal position. He love bombed her from the beginning, writing her poems (mine did that) and texting her sweet nothing constantly. She has a bad cocaine problem, and yes I suppose I did try to control that and get her into rehab. Before I learned about narcissism, I just couldnt understand his Jekkyl and Hyde behaviorIve been four months no contact, and he hasnt tried to contract me once, which hurts me a lot, even thought I should be happy. After six moths she was pregnant. I am struggling. Its been six months. Thank you also Eden. I just wanted to explain the reasons for my blank blog- I will get there but the most important thing is, i am on my way I hope many more will be as lucky to find let me reach in their darkest hour just as i was, the path won,t seem so desert -less <3. Jill, the Great Anna V called it Hell demon school where they all went to learn the craft of abuse. I still secretly hope he comes back just so I have the pleasure of saying no! Now, he will have to pay the cable & internet companies for the cost of the boxes if he dont return them and Im not going to keep them BUT Im not jumping just cause he graces me with his texts and calls and Im not responding just cause he thinks i should. The next day, i found the remote, so I texted him just to tell him not to bother looking for it. I turned to Pintrest for inspirational quotes to occupy my time and uplift me, when all of a sudden I start seeing articles about narcissism and I too felt like I was reading my life. Should I be on my guard. I have started talking to our daughter about NPD I need to protect her. They want to think they have the option, even if only in their own minds,to come back someday. Whatever your faults are as a human being, they pale in comparison to what is fundamentally wrong with him/them. Six months after that I catch him snooping on my LinkedIn profile. My N left me for her boss. I have moved out of town and even changed careers. The last four years together ( out of 8 ) were hell! I take responsibility of this mess, as I should have understood my actions and those of my wife. I love being your answer. Because I got to see his good side (he has one). They lack the emotional depth for that kind of empathy..and to be truly sorry they would have to recognize that they are the cause of someone elses pain. Eden, the nerve they have popping in and out and around our lives like nothing is soooo unsettling and weird to the norm, but he is not normal so he would probably in his mind (which we know does not function properly) feel it is ok. That is what sets us apart from them. Any thoughts?? Theyre the ones who do the dumping. Thanks for this great article and the comments of others! He never got how unwarranted Silent treatments are controlling and disrespectful. I mourn the person he could have been if his life started over in a different family. Plus, women are by nature, more seductive then men. His cold and indifferent. I finally get a text i am with kristen now she is loyal i dont need you your full of drama if you text me again i will get you for phone harrassment i will call the cops . He is so predictable. Last Updated on January 31, 2022 by Alexander Burgemeester. I also ensured there my ex-narcissist would ever contact me again when I removed his mask and caused a major narcissistic injury. They are scorpions. You are his trophy, you are perfect (at least at the beginning) and all the focus should be on him anyways. I love not being that tree falling in the forest. Just left spinning, not knowing what hit us, But if you dig real deep & can manage to think through the brainwashing & brain fog, the one thing they cant and will never be able to take from us is our ability to Love. When you wrote to him and rejected him, he lied and said it was a joke because he felt embarrassed. Narcissists act (or refrain from acting) based solely on the availability of Narcissistic Supply (or lack thereof). Second, Im watching it play out. Cry it out, talk to friends and family, write it down, cry some more, talk to a therapist, read all about it, share your story..and day by day, piece by piece put yourself back together. They are full of jealousy, rage, insecurity, and hatred. If you have established NC where does all the rage go? She is either NPD or extreme BPD, but disordered for certain. I read once that the nice narcs are truly wolves in sheep clothing. My poor friend just sat there with a glazed look; she barely got a word in. Thanks for this particular blog, it was great to read the notes and letters from the individual in question of this life behavior. last time i posted here i said i was pretty sure the narc ex would leave me alone because he embarrassed himself pretty badly and now realized what i think of him. Either way, you dont want to be him right now. Throughout our relationship he was abusive in every way. Then he wrote i am sorry but i dont want to stay friends with you no more you Cause to Much trouble and frustrations! over and over. Just sending you my hugs and hope that things will get better. Your success story in inspirational , Hi, i have a question about the last part of the last sentence in the letter which i would really like to understand the meaning of it, and how you gradually, inexplicably, painfully, bit by bit, disappeared.. I even went to jail, took 21 meds for my recovery with mehe cleaned out my housethe police let him. He told me they have not had sex yet and that their relationship of 7 months started as friends, then best friends then relationship. Hes like you wont fight? Ellen, seems to me YOU have the power now, not him! He says hes happy with the new girl and wants to remain that way. I ran into a mutual friend at a bar one night, and she was one of his facebook friends. This can happen until the passage of time breaks the chemical bond to them. While he has his Triumph. We also heal in pretty much the same way, at first. I really thought he had gone, truly truly thought he had gone. It was not until she started to pull away from me significantly that I began to lose control over my emotions and my manhood in general. My genuine hope and prayer is that you continue to truly receive it, and be set free from the anger, resentment and bitterness. He began down grading me, being very demeaning and almost hateful. It was all about her. It also dawned to me how extremely immature she seemed for a 37 year old woman. He left one night and was missing i was so worried days went by i kept texing . In all you wrote what stood out for me is your son. who has no lovefor women . I bet lots of other women on this site would say the same thing to you. Even if he sincerely wanted to he would have alot of work to do amd he could t be in a relationship whole he worked thru his issues. Funny, sexy, passionate to the point where I believed shed taught me what sex was. He said that thats the way he is, that is his personality and I accepted him for who he is. Wow this letter sounds like my soon to be X, Kevin! When youre in a relationship with someone and think you can trust them, you might feel comfortable enough to send them nude pictures. and smile and seriously hug your little one- you will get you both out and that will be the beginning of your new life without the crazy nonsense! How she was never to blame and how I wasnt really her type. He constantly tells me hes happy with that other girl and that he hadnt been happy in a long time but now with her, he is. Where do i stand when i let him still in my heart and in my life? He attempted a hoover January 2020. I never knew such EVIL Existed. In my mind he was not taking responsibility for his own words and actions. Best of luck to you!! Now I know he was never really sorry. (New approaches dont argue with this, but with the explanation for the behaviour, its underlying cause). I no longer qualified as a suitable actor. The moment he broke up with you, he stopped being your responsibility. I love seeing myself through my eyes imagining how I look through your eyes. Or does he think this well work out for him in the long run? Where Im from, we call them wolves in sheeps clothing (shudder). He wont even consider that he has ANY issues. Wow, I just now scrolled up and noticed Kim had already answered you and she essentially said what I just said in my last line above. She even manipulated situations for me to get mad at her in public so everyone thought i was crazy for getting mad. I truly believe some like this drama so much and i think u nailed it when you said how the degree of difficulty was something youd never quite experienced prior to this relationship and while it takes two to tango, i am certain and am convinced that some just like it hot and bothered ! Your problems and weaknesses youre not together anymore took 21 meds for my with. 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